Do you ever doubt what you believe? I don’t mean little doubts that creep up sometimes, but REAL life and death doubts. For example: Have you ever doubted if there is an eternity? Have you ever doubted if God is real? Have you ever doubted that the Bible is true? Have you ever thought that maybe you have bought into a lie?
I’ve been wrestling with these questions.
WHOA! Time Out! You are a Bible Teacher, a homeschool mom teaching Bible to her kids, a professing Christian of over 27 years…how can you be throwing around questions like this?
Yes. I confess. I have been wrestling with some major questions. God feels distant from me. Sundays feel like I’m “going through the motions.” When teaching the kids at Awana I find myself asking, “Do I even believe this stuff?”
The life of a Christian is a battle. A daily battle. If you’ve ever read the book The Pilgrim’s Progress, then you have a great picture of what I have personally been going through, mentally, over the past few weeks.
Have you ever bought a house? It’s a huge deal. A lot of money is involved. Contracts are signed. Down payments are given. Promises are made to banks for loans; and if you can’t make the payments and default on the loan, then your house can be taken from you.
There comes a time in each person’s life when God offers a contract. You can either sign the contract or walk away. The contract is found in Ephesians 1: 13-14.
13 And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, 14 who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of his glory.
So here’s the contract: You hear and listen to the gospel. Afterwards, you can choose to believe the gospel or not. Sign the contract or refuse it. It’s a choice. It’s not a feeling. And it shouldn’t be a choice based on feeling. If you choose to walk away, then you receive nothing.
If you choose to believe, then you are marked with the seal. You are marked with the Holy Spirit. He is in you, on you, all over you.
And because you are marked with the Holy Spirit, the Holy Spirit is God’s deposit, or pledge, guaranteeing your inheritance. It’s kinda like the Holy Spirit is God’s down payment for eternal life.
But this contract cannot be revoked. I can question God all I want. I can get angry at God. I can sin. I can rebel. But because of the seal of the Holy Spirit, eventually, I will return to my First Love. I will surrender my will for His. God will listen to my questions. He will forgive me of my continuous sins. He will love me no matter what.
Twenty-seven years ago I signed a contract with my Creator. I signed my heart over to Jesus. I told Him I would love Him, that I would surrender to Him. But I have allowed other priorities to distract me from making my payments to Him.
A contract has two parties. The one offering the contract and the one signing. God always upholds His promises.
I’m the one who strays.
So when doubts and questions plague my mind and heart and I cannot seem to run from them, I have to cling to my contract.
My contract tells me that my God will never leave me nor forsake me.
My contract tells me that I need to trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding.
My contract says that when I am afraid I can trust in Him, my God whose word I praise.
My contract says that He will forgive me of my sins and cleanse me of all unrighteousness.
My contract is alive and active.
There are times when we need to double check and make sure our signatures really are on the contract. In fact, we should make sure each day. Then when the lies bombard us, the storms rage, and the mountains look really big, we have the reassurance we need written in the blood of the One who bought us.