I don’t know about you, but I need mercy and grace every day. I mess up ALL the time. Especially recently, it seems. Yesterday I battled it out. I questioned, I cried, I discussed, I quoted, I paced…
My biggest question was this: Am I the only one who messes up like this? I mean really, God. I feel like I apologize for things I do to EVERYONE all the TIME!
I even asked my husband and a friend this question. No one gave me an answer. Silence. Not even God…
He didn’t speak through the whirlwind, or the earthquake, or the fire. He spoke in my heart as I lost my temper, again for the umpteeth time.
“Yes, you mess up. And you are to blame. You are sinful. I am holy. You need grace. I give it freely. Wash yourself once again in my forgiveness and be free. Don’t worry about the sin of others. What is that to you? I am in the process of sanctifying YOU. Allow Me to work in your weaknesses. Allow Me to shine through the cracks in your clay vessel. Allow Me to be your treasure. Allow Me to fight your battles for you. Allow Me to love you, My child, as I want. Will it be easy to do this? No. My road is narrow. And few will follow it. But you will. Sacrifice is hard. It comes in different forms. Right now I am sacrificing your pride. I want humility. Why do I want to do this? Because I love you. I died for you. I took your blame, so you can be blameless and righteous.”
Maybe you need this scripture today as I needed it. I encourage you to read it aloud to the Father. It’s powerful. I was in tears by the end.
Eph. 3: 14-21: For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen [ME] with power through his Spirit in [MY] inner being, so that Christ may dwell in [MY] heart through faith. And I pray that [I], being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge —that [I] may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all [I CAN] ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within [ME], to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever! Amen.