This section was good. I say that because it has changed some of my thinking. Over the past few months as I’ve gone through the Made to Crave study, it has been drilled into my brain that “everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial.” Just that Truth has taken some getting used to.
Then I was pounded with the Truth in this section.
I need to be thankful for my fight with my weight.
“Courage is a woman who says, ‘God, thank You for letting me have this issue because without it, I would never have discovered all these beautiful truths.'” (pg.128)
Perhaps I would have learned these Truths eventually, but God decided to use this weakness of weight control in my life to teach me about Himself. What a backwards way of thinking! But isn’t that so like God? His ways are just not like my ways. I would L.O.V.E. to get rid of this issue of weight control…but this is my thorn. This is what He will continue to use to teach me, sanctify me, and draw me unto Himself. It’s through this issue that I know without a doubt that I MUST rely on His power every day. It’s my battle for a healthier life style that teaches me that He is faithful even when I am not.
My struggles and disappointments aren’t for nothing. I can find peace amid the fight. I will learn what perseverance really is for me in my walk with the Lord. I can own my food addiction and know that sin in this area of my life can be forgiven.
“God wants us to step back and let the emptying process have its way until we start desiring a holier approach to life. The gap between our frail discipline and God’s available strength is bridged with nothing but a simple choice on our part to pursue this holiness.” (page 168)
The first thing I need to do is…I need to pray. I need to pray that God would grow a desire in me to be holy. And that the desire to be holy will be stronger than any desire for chocolate or unhealthy greasy foods.
“Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God.” ~ 2 Corinthians 7:1
The second thing I am going to do is go on a 40 day fast of desserts. I’ve done this in the past and it is so rewarding. I will allow one down day for my 40th birthday party, but I will start right back up the next day.
The third thing I need to work on is to not compare myself with others around me. I find myself so discouraged and overwhelmed at times. Others seem to have it so much easier when it comes to food and have it under control. I can’t focus on what God has for them…I need to focus on what God has for ME. And it will be my taking small step after small step that allows me to eventually reach the healthy life style that God has for me.
For a great article on the Process, not Progress of Weight Loss, please check out this New Creation Ministries article.
Yes, I need to desire to be more holy in my eating and in all aspects of life. I also need to be a better example to my children, especially my daughter. I don’t know what “thorn” she will be given, but at least through my struggles I can teach her how to rely on God’s strength and how to “work out salvation with fear and trembling.”