Change is hard. Some people seem to relish it. Others seem to avoid it all cost. Me? I’m in the midst of it. I’m right on the cusp of something. I don’t know all of the details. I can’t tell you any details. And it’s scary. Other lives are at stake. A wrong decision would be devastating to everyone involved.
This is is big deal.
Yet, I’m trying to not make this a big deal because if I started thinking, and planning, my heart might end up breaking in the end.
As I listened to a song in church tonight the Lord revealed to me how selfish I have been this week when all of this “stuff” started happening. I’ve been introspective. I’ve been withdrawn from people.
This is one of those situations where it’s “not about me.” Yet, it’s about me. And it’s ALL about God.
I must be broken and poured out.
I must choose to be a living sacrifice.
This is where I am…I’ll let the words of the song say it:
Here I am
Here I stand
Lord, my life is in your hands
Lord, I’m longing to see
Your desires revealed in me
I give myself away.
I can’t say it any better than that. Those words are my heart’s desire in this moment. In this situation.
It’s not about me, yet it IS about me.
It’s about me giving myself away, broken, to a God who has amazing desires, and dreams, to reveal in me.
So even if there is an unknown future, I still need to be OTHERS centered. Not focused on myself and my fears. During the daily grind, I must still show my love to others and not be paralyzed by what “might” be. I must give myself away in spite of the unknown.
Readers, I would appreciate your prayers during this time of the unknown. And I hope that I will be able to fill in all the details with you soon.
Thank you. 🙂