Please welcome Lisa, who is a Reader of FFS! She has written about a boast of the Lord which is dear to my heart. Be sure to say, “Hello” to Lisa and leave an encouraging comment to her below.
Let’s boast in the Lord together!!
When my husband and I got married, we knew we wanted children and we always planned on having two. Two years after we said, “I do,” we had our first son, and then two years later we had our second son, just as we had planned. Now we could settle down and be a family of four and enjoy parenting our boys as they grew. We comfortably walked down this path day by day and enjoyed each milestone.
Early in 2011, I prayed for God to use me for His purpose and to do His work. In my mind, I saw Him having me help with outreach ministries in our community, especially those involving children. He had other plans. During my quiet time, God nudged me and revealed that He had plans to give my family a gift. Wow, a gift from God! That had to be good! I easily accepted His invitation and eagerly awaited this special gift. God next revealed to me that He wanted to give our family a baby! A baby? While a great gift, that was not in our plans. I was almost 40. Our boys were already 9 and 7. We had given away all the baby gear. People would think we had lost our minds. I quickly came up with a long list of excuses and made God’s offer into something much more difficult than the simple obedience of which He was asking.
After revealing God’s request to my husband and praying about the decision, we both decided to let go and let God. If it was meant to be, then God would provide this little gift. Several months later, just before Father’s Day, we were overjoyed to discover that a new little bundle was on its way. But a week later, our world came crashing down as we realized we would never hold this new life in our arms on this side of heaven. Shock, confusion, heartbreak and disappointment were some of our many feelings. How could a loving God request us to step out in obedience and then let such a precious gift be taken away? In a moment of anger, I yelled out in my head, “How could you let this happen?” A peace like none I had ever felt washed over me as I heard, “I am with you and will never leave you.” (Matt. 28:20). I then yelled out, “But you don’t understand!” God answered ever so softly, “I do understand, I once lost my Son too.” Those were the powerful words that changed my life!
Through the heartbreak, I received many blessings. I can boast in God, even through this loss. God was patient when I stumbled to believe his gift. God was forgiving, when I was weak in obedience. God was loving and compassionate when I failed to understand. God kept His word and gave us the precious gift of another child (James 1:7). I can boast in God because I now walk closer to Him than I did before, have greater faith (Luke 17:6), and I want to be obedient. God is so good!
Lisa is a busy homeschool mother of three. Together, she and her husband enjoy each day watching their three sons grow. Someday, she hopes to put ideas into print and start a blog which takes the ordinary around us and portrays it in a fresh new light using truths from the Bible.
How has God shown you that He understands?