I hope you have enjoyed the Broken Hearts, Fueled Passions Series!! God is so good to use us broken people for His perfect ways!
Today’s post is written by a dear friend of mine. Annie is one of those friends whom you know will tell you honestly how things are, but love you through the process. Her sweet and calm spirit make my heart smile when I see her and I am excited to share her with you today. Be sure to write an encouraging comment at the end!
I never intended to be a nurse. I was in a “job,” not a career, early on in our marriage and something about the way I cared about people prompted my husband to ask me the question: “Why don’t you look into nursing?” Looking back now I know that was the Holy Spirit guiding him to ask that question. I was just an infant in my walk with the Lord at that time and wasn’t in the habit of listening closely to what the Holy Spirit had to say. I was just floating along at that time in my life, much too busy raising two little girls to think about that sort of monumental change.
Now, I’m so glad I listened to him. Over the past ten years the Lord has blessed me with many opportunities. He has broken my heart over and over for the sick and has shown me how I can be a light through someone’s sickness and despair. I learned early on in my nursing career, working long twelve hour night shifts, that people are lost and lonely. Healing of the spirit is what people need. I learned that in caring for people and meeting their physical needs I could help them to see a servant and what Jesus was for others. My heart was broken for my patients.
Serving others was so hard for me when I was a younger and still is some days. I was always looking out for myself and my own needs. God softened my heart through prayer and reading of his word. It did not happen overnight and it did not happen in a year, but years later God has softened my heart. I have learned to be a “yes girl”. When God strongly lays something on my heart my desire is for my answer to be ‘yes’. Do I miss opportunities? All the time I miss them, but my heart’s desire is to be in God’s will and to answer when he calls.
Five years ago one of my friends at work asked if I would be interested in going on a medical mission trip with her church. I was scared to death as I do not do well meeting others and had not been very bold in sharing my faith. I thought I would fumble and would not have a clue as to what to say. God worked on my heart and provided a way for the trip to happen. Half a year later I found myself in Honduras working in a little village named Oropoli meeting the physical needs by assessing, prescribing medications, and giving food to the people. By the end of the first day, I had God speaking through me like I had never imagined. I distinctly remember a young lady who came to my station and reported that she was depressed and wanted some medication to ease the despair she was feeling. She was empty. I was able to share the Gospel and my own testimony to help her to see that only God could fill that empty hole and despairing feeling that she was having. Two nights later I was able to smile and wave across the tent to this young woman as she came to the revival service. My heart was broken for the Lost.
Last year I was called to another mission trip. I was sure that God wanted me to go but was personally feeling a little uneasy about it due to the fact that it was not a medical mission trip. I had previously been on two medical mission trips and one evangelist trip but the thought of speaking in public, or sharing your testimony can be intimidating. Satan works very hard to make you feel like you are not worthy of doing these things. Medicine is my comfort zone and this was taking me out of it. God knew exactly what he was doing. All throughout the trip I was needed for medical questions/help. There were people on our team and people in the village and all around that I was able to serve medically. Never underestimate what God’s plan is.
In the last five years God pushed me out of my comfort zone of being the nurse, into being a nurse manager. I still feel an incredible burden to take care of and serve the people I lead. My role may have changed but the message is consistent. When I think back over the course of my life I remember how I felt coming home after the first mission trip I ever went on. I came home on fire for God. I was ready to sell everything we had and move to Honduras. My husband slowed me down. Over the next few weeks as I prayed, the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart very strongly that I am in the mission field God has called me to be in. Basically He said “LOOK AROUND! There is work to do. The harvest is plentiful and the workers are few (Matthew 9:37). Get to work!” My heart is broken for my work family.
1 Peter 4:10: “Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms.”
Annie is a very busy wife and mother of three. She works a full time job as a Nurse leader and teaches part time as an online nursing instructor. She has a passion for her patients and staff, and also has a passion for women’s ministry in her church.