As I was sitting here at the breakfast table drinking my coffee and reading my devotional, I looked up and saw the pair of socks sitting on the floor. I have no idea how long they have been there. I looked up the wall and saw the jackets. “It’s been in the 80’s for weeks now,” I thought. I listened to the kids as they passed through the garage. They were playing outside because I had shooed them out. “Go find you something to do, please,” I had said.
This was a morning that I wish I could do over. I woke up with a headache and stressful thoughts were already crowding my mind. RB had quietly knocked on my door at 7:30am and asked for something to eat. I knew that if I told him “yes” that two other little girls would follow him and THEN I’d have to get up, fix milk to drink, clean up crumbs, sweep the floor……..domino effect.
I told him no.
And then I told him yes.
But I was grumpy about it.
How selfish of me.
And so the dominoes fell and the snowballs rolled.
All of these things, socks, jackets, food…seem so little. Yet when one after another after another is piled on, the molehill, literally, can turn into a mountain that seems impossible to climb.
And in the midst of climbing up the mountain, we are called to be a holy people, set apart for God.
“…and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord…” ~ Hebrews 12:14
I have not been holy. Perhaps I have considered myself “set apart” and walked through the motions. But in action, word, and thought I have been so far away from holy it isn’t funny. I have been fighting unseen battles every day. And since I’ve attempted to read the Bible and pray on a more consistent schedule, the arrows that had been flying have become more numerous.
I always thought it strange that Paul tells his readers to “follow his example.” How arrogant to tell people to be as you are. And then in another letter Paul tells how he is the chief of sinners. That seems contradictory to me.
After meditating on this for a while, I think I understand.
I stare at our family portraits and we look like such happy family. Overall, I think we are. We are extremely blessed. But those pictures capture a “fake moment in time.” The smiles hide the fact that little ones were antsy to leave, the husband was hungry, and mom was stressed and tired. I need a reality check.
Readers, I mess up…a lot. In fact, I am the chief of sinners. I may not be after Christians to throw them in jail and possibly murder them, but I have lost my temper, said words that cut instead of edify, and had my own pity parties and tantrums when I don’t get my own way.
Sin is sin.
And we are to be holy as Jesus is holy.
The only way I can do that is to admit my guilt and make sure I am covered by the blood of Jesus. Jesus is holy. I am not.
So Readers, I ask you to follow my example, as Paul did to his own readers of the day.
Admit your short comings.
Consider your ways.
Make sure you are right with God through Jesus, His Son. Pursue Him. Seek Him. He will be found.
The socks on the floor may stay there for another week or so. The jackets will be fine on the hooks. The faces in the photos on the walls hold memories which teach and bring joy.
As I’m ending this post, two little heads “floated” by my window. THEY are watching me. THEY will follow my example. I want that example to be real, transparent, and desirable. I want them to see me wrestling with sin and working out my salvation so that they will know Who to turn to when they need a Rock to stand on.
Which leads me to think….I wonder what kind of blog post Paul would write to his readers today?
What would be a blog title Paul would use? Let me know below.